Sunday, December 14, 2008

He's getting so big!


The highlight of our weekend was opening the mail last night and finding new pictures of our son. Here is a picture of Asa from a couple of weeks ago. We cannnot wait to bring him home!! No idea why he is in pink. Probably a good thing since pink is the dominant color in our little girl home right now. It will be a familiar color to him.

Brief window into life with a nut allergy

We went to our first Christmas party tonight. We were one of the first ones there and Elizabeth stood in front of a big bowl of candy staring at it. Next to it was a bowl of mixed nuts. I told her it was ok , and that we could get some candy before other people arrived and it probably would be safe. She still would not eat any out of fear of a reaction. We are so thankful she is this cautious.
Her allergy, as many nut allergies, is such that if someone grabbed a handful of nuts and then touched the candy and she ate some candy they touched she could have a reaction. We never know what the reaction will be; we just know it will be worse than the last. It could be a life threatening reaction.
Just last week a friend of hers with an allergy got in his car at home and his mom drove him to school. By the time they arived at school his eyes were swollen shut. They do not know why, but they think another child ate a peanut product, got in their car, had nut residue on his hands and touched something in the car. Elizabeth's friend then touched the residue and rubed his eyes and volia-allergic reaction. So glad he did not put his hands in his mouth.
The most difficult thing for us has been the fact she acquired this allergy as an older child. This is very rare and absolutely sucks. Most of her allergy friends do not like the forbidden foods and do not know what they are missing. Elizabeth has had five years of eating cake at birthday parties, going our for ice cream, eating out at any restaurant, and not thinking twice about what she eats. This is our first Christmas with this and we try to stuff her before we go to parties hoping she will not notice the table and plates of goodies that she could eat this time last year. We cannot get ice cream at an ice cream store because if they scoop the pistachio or almond type ice cream then scoop the vanilla she is in trouble. Anything from a bakery is out because they use nuts on the same equipment they make cookies, cakes, etc. We are becoming pros at calling restaurants and grilling them on their station set up and nut usage. It is unbelieveable how many things are processed in facilities that also process nuts. Grocery shopping takes close to two hours because of reading labels, and we have to read them every time because plants and processing can change. We are adjusting. The hardest part is watching our five year old adjust.
We are very thankful as well. We have wonderful friends and doctors who are helping us navigate this world. We are thankful for modern medicine and that we know about her allergy. We are thankful that we were home on a Saturday afternoon when she had her reaction and the hospital was empty when we arrived. We were not in Korea, we were not at a restaurant and we had nothing planned. We are hopeful research will shed more light on the bizare food allergies kiddos have these days and maybe they will become more managable.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Our son!!

Well, I am very slow at updating this thing. The Korean gov't did rule in favor of the foster family, so Hanbin is staying in Korea. For me, by the time we heard the decision three weeks after the initial call, I was more relieved than anything. It was all finally over, and we could move on with life. Well, a week after that call we received another call. Amazingly, we already have a new referral. This time Korea made sure our child is with an experienced foster family who will be able to let go of this child they have loved, so the risk of that happening again is non-existent.

His birthday is May 12, and he is a very healthy little guy. Neil is still working on his name. These pictures were taken at the end of August. We cannot believe this is our second referral of a completely healthy child. That is very rare. God continues to bless us greatly through this process.

















Apparently the old-man-pants-up-to-your-armpits is the latest baby craze in Korea.


































Our wonderful social worker who has a child from Korea commented,"Good luck with his hair." She speaks from experience.

Friday, September 12, 2008

We might lose Hanbin to his foster family

Well, it has been a horrible week. Wednesday afternoon our social worker called us with the news that Hanbin's foster family wants to adopt him. After that, I pretty much did not hear what she had to say. In short, next week a Korean social worker will visit the family and evaluate the situation to decide if they or we can adopt him. Now, where my anger comes from is he was in their home for over two months before we received his referral, and during that time he was open for Korean adoption and not yet on the international adoption list.

Why not ask to adopt him then? Why did it take his getting referred to us for them to decide they want him? Who knows. What we do know is Korea really values domestic adoption, so we may have very little chance of bringing him home. What we have working for us is the mom is 48 and the dad is 52 and their youngest is 19. We should find out sometime next week Korea's decision. No one involved in our side of this process has ever heard of this happening. Our side also has no control over what happens. There is no reasoning or making a case for us. We just sit and wait for the Korean adoption system to make their decision.

We are not telling Elizabeth anything until we know exactly what is going to happen.


We will post Korea's decision when we hear it. Meanwhile, I hope the worst of the weeping has past. It was pretty intense over the last 48 hours. I am sure there will be another wave of tears, but at least they are further apart and less intense. There is just a deep sadness now. That will last for awhile, but I can work with that.

Meanwhile, we pray. We pray that God allows Hanbin to come to our home as our son, but we also know that God has a plan and ultimately we are content and at peace with His plan. If he has another child in mind as our son, we ask that He holds our hearts through this pain and gives us wisdom to guide Elizabeth through this. Life has taught both of us that God's plans for us are usually better than anything we could ever dream of on our own. Sometimes it is a little harder to arrive at our dreams than we would like it to be, but in the end He gives us exactly what He knows our hearts need.

Monday, September 8, 2008

How vain

Every Saturday Neil takes Elizabeth to breakfast and then they go do different activities. It is the one morning a week I stay out of the outfitting business with Elizabeth. Neil does not care how coordinated her clothes are; that seems to be a mom thing. I figure people will see her with her dad and understand mom had nothing to do with the loud, colorful, mismatched outfit and shaggy hair.
Well, this past Saturday they came home from their outing all excited because a reporter stopped when she saw them playing in Richland creek and photographed and interviewed them. One who is less self involved would have shared in the excitement and would have immediately been thrilled to have this precious father-daughter moment captured in print. Well, what was my immediate thought? "Oh shoot! What was she wearing?!" I still feel a little bad about that being the first thing that came to mind. At least it was a fleeting thought. I am very excited for them, and cannot wait to see the article and read what they did with Elizabeth's first interview.

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Our Referral from Korea

We got a referral for a baby boy from Korea this week. His name is Hanbin Suh. After having our pediatrician review his medical file, we have officially accepted him! He is very healthy, growing well within infant growth charts, and he was born on my father's birthday, March 7, 2008.

From here, the Korean government and US immigration take about two months each, so, hopefully, we will go to Korea sometime in the new year to pick him up!

We will post more information and pictures later, so check back here soon!

Neil, Janet & Elizabeth